Back to the Start

how do I feel?
how will I know?
when is the time?
who say's it's so?

The tide will come in
my dear little dove
something will die
as life's just begun

Here I'll Hide

I'll use my words
as a knife,
to pierce all your bad judgment & cruelty
and you may never know

or better yet, maybe you will
and here I'll hide.
Feeling mighty, feeling strong
Swimming in my sentences, rolling with evil laughter
at the way you live your dirty little life

hey, maybe you'll know
HA, ha, HA, ha, HA, ha
maybe you won't...

Death Becomes Me

I will hang on to this bitterness like a new best friend
I will drag it with me throughout my long life
I will let it cut me, pierce me, devour me
I will let it mould me, shape me, envelope me

I will hold it when I'm cold
Drink it when I'm empty
Love it when I'm angry
Sleep in it's prickly bed

I will grow old & let it follow me
I'll build a house so it can live with me
I'll break my back so I can carry it
I'll reach the end & I will hate it
It will churn in my stomach & make me eternally ill

It will define me & complete me & end me

then........I will die

Loser

Round, full, promising heart
Filled to the top with love & hope
Small, sad, violent seed
Makes it's way & digs in deep

Tears, pain, anger, loss
Such a cruel way to grow up fast
Time, days, weeks, years
Hate your life now do you dear?

Rise, fly, lift, high
I rebuild as years go by
Cursed, cold, bruised, gone
It's your loss you fucking fraud

I'll Be Watching

Self righteous pig
Burn up in your daily sins
Seethe until you become a burden on many
Unleash until you burden us ALL

your face is a pit, a hole, a blank vile placeholder
Your day will come
Your day will come my friend
and I will be waiting......

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Black

My face is drenched in tears tonight
again.
This hollow, empty feeling is filled only with my fear
You lay there so still, so cold
my mind wanders.....

I'm in a boat.
It's sailing through the water.
I'm floating.
I can feel my weightlessness.
I'm laughing.
So much laughter.
My cheeks ache from all my smiling.
Everybody loves me & I am beautiful & thin
I'm in love & I am loved

I wake up & it's black.

A Golden Life

Peaceful long life
I've waited for you

Won't you keep me from breaking as I dissolve into your undying caress?

Your mine to love and live and breathe and spin into anything I imagine
Anything I treasure
Anything I dream
Anything I desire

Forever and ever is mine and mine alone
and right now, everything I touch turns to gold

So here's my middle finger as I hold my head as high as the biggest bluest sky

Viva!