Monday, April 30, 2012

Darkest Black

I've always been seduced by the dark side.

It's floaty music knocking on my heart,

It's black paint washing my eyes,

til all I can see is the night.


Take me in & mould me,

dance your dirty dance with me,

drag me, bruise me, scratch me,

It's always just a whispering,

a soft note gently building,

a rolling wind so tempting...


But white light shows me honesty.


& bravery,


I'll love you in a way, u see,

but my heart is with the greatest of the great,

& you are just a melody.

Singing to me sweetly.

Never really winning.

A lost and lonely empty.

A nothing real to me.


Saturday, February 4, 2012

The Most Evil One

I see it there,
Embedded in your heart

A word 
Violently thrown
From my mouth

Fills until it almost combusts

You catch it
Cup it in your hands
You shield your eyes
You can't look at it
Don't want to connect with it

But its leering
Almost bursting

You turn to throw it
Be rid of it
End it

It turns back
Forms a glass edged point
& enters your chest

Its ragged edges pierce
It's rusty terror enters
It's in your heart

It lives there
It's found a home
Inside your soul
Inside your memory
Inside your image

Forever it stays

And I didn't even mean it......

Friday, December 9, 2011

Here I Am

Swirling empty nothing
My only companion
Deep swelling longing
Your my only friend

Tears weigh down my spirit
Connection is all that I need
Sweet loving purpose
Someone a kin to me

Something alive
Something vital
Something honest
Something real

Fill me up with love
Fill me up with kindness
Fill me up with knowing

I'm in here
I'm in here
Here I am

I'm in here

Friday, June 17, 2011

Perfect Love

My little light
My little heart
There's nothing I wouldn't do.
Theres no one I'd rather be,
than your mother

My sweetest boy
My loveliest babe
You fill me with,
The warmest love
My darling son

I love you endlessly
fiercely & truly
I'll hold you closely
For all your days with me

My special half me
God chose you proudly
& gave you perfectly,
to love & need me
My God, I'm so lucky
My perfect little boy

Thursday, June 16, 2011

For My Loves

I love you so much,
without you,
I would die.

My body would go cold.
My skin would turn pale.
I'd wither & I'd be gone.
Dry & lifeless,
I'd float away with the wind.

Without you,
I'd be nothing.
A black & lifeless hole.
I'd no longer be anything,
If I didn't have you.

Oh to feel so much need,
and to deny it not,
Is a gift,
and a curse.

To feel so much love,
to let it govern your life,
Is equally freeing,
as it is suffocating.
Equally wonderful,
as it is pain.

But I love you so.
So, much so,
I'd die without you.
I'd surely die.

Sunday, March 13, 2011

Ask & You Shall Receive

My beating heart
My happy spirit
My lucky life
My complete & utter blessed of blessings

God is watching & I don't deserve his loving eye

All I can ask for is his forgiveness
Time & time & time,
on & over & on & over again

Thursday, December 30, 2010

A Rhyme for a Patch of Mine ♥

Veggie Garden,
little haven.
Small & new
what will you do?

Burn & fry right to the ground?
or grow so high with veggies proud?

Stand up tall like an Indian chief?
or dry & shrivel like an autumn leaf?

Now I wait for you to show
will you stay?
or will you go?

back in the ground where you began?
or up & proud like I have planned?

Little patch so full of life
I'll give you water, I'll give you light
I'll give you love, I'll give you time
& write for you this little rhyme ♥