Lord
Where are you?
I often call you in the stillness of the night
or do I?....
When was the last time?
I'm getting older now
Your getting farther now
I'm scared & I'm alone
Did you see my boy?
We washed him in the water of your heart
& my heart danced a little dance
as I prayed a little prayer
Will you forgive me?
Will you redeem me?
Will you protect me?
Lord
I'm here
Sunday, October 31, 2010
Friday, October 29, 2010
No More
I punched the wall yesterday
Suddenly I saw you punching our family wall.
Then I saw you smacking me with a wooden spoon.
Then I saw you throwing a stool at me in my room.
Then I saw you breaking a glass on the kitchen floor.
I saw so many of YOU,
my protectors,
my loved ones,
my hero's
Then I realised why I feel so angry all the time.
Then I realised i'm passing this on,
for him to pass on,
for his one's to pass on.
I will never punch my wall again
Mine
Waiting....waiting...waiting
His time will come
Waiting....
He is late & we hold on to time
Waiting....
He is here & we are ready
We believe
My sadness is flowing, my happiness is never ending
My pain is burning, my love is growing, our love is growing
We have released our fears like a dove to the sky
Family is right now
We will breathe the air of a new life that is forever our's
His time will come
Waiting....
He is late & we hold on to time
Waiting....
He is here & we are ready
We believe
My sadness is flowing, my happiness is never ending
My pain is burning, my love is growing, our love is growing
We have released our fears like a dove to the sky
Family is right now
We will breathe the air of a new life that is forever our's
It's ♥
Pink warm glow
on my cheeks
It's love love love
Sweet light smell
in my hair
It's love love love
Sleepy soft skin
in my arms
It's love love love
Strong trusted fortress
living in my heart
It's Love L♥ve LoVe
on my cheeks
It's love love love
Sweet light smell
in my hair
It's love love love
Sleepy soft skin
in my arms
It's love love love
Strong trusted fortress
living in my heart
It's Love L♥ve LoVe
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Love
a little capsule
soft & floating
warm & sweet
together with my heart
open to enter
just a little palace
feels like a sunny twinkle
to rest an idea
melt to dissolve
enormous beautiful you
I love you
I love you
I Love You
soft & floating
warm & sweet
together with my heart
open to enter
just a little palace
feels like a sunny twinkle
to rest an idea
melt to dissolve
enormous beautiful you
I love you
I love you
I Love You
Forget the Moment
(An unfinished song written around 2004)
a room with two people
one afraid & one a silent mess
here in the shadows
weighted down & heavy with your breath
cursed to be locked in
& never to be free....
bitten by satan
bleeding into me
then in the school yard all their faces
lining up to see
that you were wanting, truly wanting
I could never give you love
Forget the moment
a flower slowly dying
in the fire of your sun
I'm in the closet holding secrets
not knowing what I've lost
you are a boy with pure desire
take your aim at me
living in the shadows
scared to take a breath
I pray to God for absolution
while I struggle in my bed
what am I nothing but a body?
For you to have your way
What is it that I owe you?
My blood & all my hate
You pin me down so you can view me
& hold me as your prey
you call me slut & roll me over
What is it with this man?
Forget the moment
a room with two people
one afraid & one a silent mess
here in the shadows
weighted down & heavy with your breath
cursed to be locked in
& never to be free....
bitten by satan
bleeding into me
then in the school yard all their faces
lining up to see
that you were wanting, truly wanting
I could never give you love
Forget the moment
a flower slowly dying
in the fire of your sun
I'm in the closet holding secrets
not knowing what I've lost
you are a boy with pure desire
take your aim at me
living in the shadows
scared to take a breath
I pray to God for absolution
while I struggle in my bed
what am I nothing but a body?
For you to have your way
What is it that I owe you?
My blood & all my hate
You pin me down so you can view me
& hold me as your prey
you call me slut & roll me over
What is it with this man?
Forget the moment
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Love Is Like Living A Dream
the day rolls away
& you pat me softly on my chest
& I love you like nothing else
Everything that was ever anything is nothing,
without you
My body fills your cells which are my own cells & his cells & because of this,
I know,
real beauty really does exist
I rock us both while I dream about all the years that I'll love you
I'll always love you
Always ♥
& you pat me softly on my chest
& I love you like nothing else
Everything that was ever anything is nothing,
without you
My body fills your cells which are my own cells & his cells & because of this,
I know,
real beauty really does exist
I rock us both while I dream about all the years that I'll love you
I'll always love you
Always ♥
Sweet Freedom
Some times I feel
that all that I am,
& all that I'll ever be
is a weathered version of you
a crinkled, hollow, hateful, selfish, nasty, self righteous version of YOU
I have no escape
There is no release
There is no freedom
from this life sentence
your long, painful life has melted into my own
Monday, October 25, 2010
WHY
He asked me,
why I hate you
and I opened my mouth
to spit the words
to describe
the deeply entrenched
H.A.T.E
I hold
FOR YOU.
it seems
the swiftly flowing years
and
living near power lines
has robbed me of my memories
but I choose to hate you anyway
see, I DON'T need a reason
lady
why I hate you
and I opened my mouth
to spit the words
to describe
the deeply entrenched
H.A.T.E
I hold
FOR YOU.
it seems
the swiftly flowing years
and
living near power lines
has robbed me of my memories
but I choose to hate you anyway
see, I DON'T need a reason
lady
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